i looked up at the sky the other night. i saw the big dipper. it made me smile.
none of my friends give a shit about me. to them i am disposable. they could take me or leave me. and if they feel otherwise..they have a shitty way of showing it. i have one true friend on this earth. and if not for her i would be dead.
and i am lonely. and need to be held.
and that's enough of that. last night i ran around the house manically...painting..writing..baking...singing..crying...tripping..at 3am. and fell asleep at four. and now my eyes are heavy like marbles in my sockets.
school is stupid. it is sucking out my youth.
sometimes i forget to breathe.
i bought a new record..tool - 'opiate'..
goodbye.
mood: shot
music: "sweat" - tool.
