finals. i hate finals.
everyone seems to have taken their finals last week..hm..who cares. i took the chem one today. it was awful. i studied and i didn't know any of the multiple choice. except "what is an atom?"...urg.
i'm eating yan yan and contemplating my stupidity in all situations..
i wish that i was smart and clever and knew just the way to say the things i want to say. i cannot communicate with other humans.. i want to so bad. i want to carry on conversation without having to roll my eyes around and say "uh..uh.."
i just want to get out of this skin. or be a ghost or something. some way that i can get close to pepole without cowering away. and is it in fear? i want to understand it. this barrier that i put up. and i want some more yan yan..and to stop complaining. and realize that..
I AM NOT DYING IN A GUTTER SOMEWHERE.
hm. why do i bother? is anybody out there?
mood = bzzzzzzz .. ?
music = "something vague" -bright eyes
